Healthy Weight
Baby Girl,
Are you tired of being double-minded yet - SAYING you trust Me, asking Me to lead you, and then rebelliously acting out of self-will instead of the radical obedience we recently talked about?
Yes? Then let’s make a game out of this struggle you’re facing. You seem to enjoy games. You’ve been playing the cat-and-mouse game of control at the enemy’s suggestion for 33 years now.
I know you’ve been telling everyone you struggled - past tense - with a disordered relationship with food, your body, and the scale for 32 years. You say that as though you believe you’ve been living in victory over it for the last year. You managed to white-knuckle not giving in and acting on the enemy’s suggestions for a year… until this past month and a half, where you’ve given yourself over to all sorts of his ideas. Is that how you want to continue defining victory?
The Oxford dictionary defines victory as the act of defeating an enemy in a battle, game, or other competition. Can you technically define what you’re living as victory if both of you still have game pieces in play? It’s time to overturn the table and walk away from the game. That’s victory.
The enemy brought the whole game to the table including both his pieces and yours. If you choose to end the game, tell him he can keep both his suggestions and the spirit of control he gave you to play with. What he knows and, at times, I thought you understood, is that you never stood a chance. The game, as he created it, is rigged - not so that he could win, but so that the game could never end. If you pay close attention, you’ll notice there is no finish line on the board.
1 John 5 will give you a better definition of victory. Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God. To LOVE Me is to keep My commandments. My commandments are not burdensome because whatever is born of God overcomes the world. THIS is the victory that has overcome the world – your faith! Who is he who overcomes the world, but he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God? Baby, that’s you. Your victory is won simply on the merit of your faith but you’ve been leaning on faith as a double-minded child, keeping you unstable in all your ways.
Do you remember what your physical therapist told you about balance and your pelvic floor? She said for you to work on your single leg stability because your instability, when you stand on only one foot, is representative of the weakness in your pelvic floor. It was hard for you to wrap your mind around the fact that two things that are seemingly COMPLETELY unrelated to each other in your body could be so closely tied in function.
Your unwillingness to follow My lead in diet and exercise is negatively affecting every single arena of your life - all of them, including your intimacy with Me. You have spent your entire life perfectly content to walk in defiance in this area as long as you can maintain what you consider to be a healthy weight.
You have never been a healthy weight. When you have compared yourself to the instructions that came with the enemy’s game, the BMI chart, measuring yourself by manmade standards, you have had seasons where you came into agreement with HIM that you were healthy. You have never been a healthy weight because your mental health is tied to your weight as closely as your pelvic floor is tied to your single leg stability.
Not only have you allowed your body to be a source of distraction in your life, but you have turned it into an idol. You have served it as a god. You have sacrificed on the altar what was sacred in honor of what was never intended to be more than a vehicle to transport your spirit and Mine in this world. Food for the stomach and the stomach for foods, but I will destroy both it and them. Your body is for the LORD, and the LORD for the body.
Are you ready to play a new game with this area of your life? A game that is rigged in your favor, not against you?
Let’s start with considering it ALL JOY when you experience tests of faith in which you experience trouble or adversity, knowing that, each time your faith is tested, you’re building a foundation of patience. Let that patience do its work in you that you may be perfect and complete and lacking nothing.
If you’re lacking wisdom at any point in the game, ask Me. You can TOTALLY table-talk in this game! I’ll show you ALL My cards! But you’ve got to ask in faith, TRUSTING that I’m not holding any cards back and I’ve got no cards up My sleeves.
If you ask assuming I’m withholding something from you that you need to win, doubting My goodness, My faithfulness, or My kindness, you’ll be unstable not just in this area but in every area, and you can assume you’ll not receive anything from Me. If you assume that I’m your opponent or that I can’t be trusted as your partner in the game, My hand won’t be helpful to you, and I will not show it to you.
As a word of caution: guard yourself against a spirit of pride. If you choose to partner with Me in the care of your body, it will become what you always dreamed it would be: fit, strong, healthy, and pleasing to the eye.
Over the past four months, you have obediently surrendered your formfitting and attention-grabbing clothing, your jewelry, your hair color, nail polish and anything else that would make you stand out in a crowd. As your body becomes fit, strong, healthy, and pleasing to the eye, it will become increasingly difficult to be humble about your appearance.
You are NOT to change the way you dress as your body changes simply because you become more comfortable in your skin. Your body is not changing so you will look better but so that you will be strong, healthy, and equipped to do everything I ask you to do. Your appearance changing is not the goal but the inconsequential effect of following Me obediently.
You are NOT to advise ANYONE about weight loss, fitness, or to tell anyone specifically what, how, or how much you eat. If anyone asks what you’re doing or how you’re doing it your answer is simply “I’m learning to follow the leading of Holy Spirit in every area of my life.” How I will lead you into health is not necessarily how I will lead anyone else into health. Encourage them to talk to Me, to listen to Me, and to follow closely. As I am about to lead you into success, I will lead them into success.
Be clear about this: YOU will not lead anyone into success. You have proven that you alone are incapable of leading even yourself into success. DO NOT think yourself an expert.
YOU do not have anyone else’s answers. THEY have them. They have them in the same measure as you have your own: ALL. You have ALL the answers you’ll ever need - and so do they.
Are you ready for an adventure? Get some sleep. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life!
Hugs,
Daddy
Colossians 2:20-23
